In the 12th grade I just couldn’t concentrate. Got 12/75, 14/75 and 22/100 in physics, chemistry and maths in the third term. Wanted to skip the year but mom forced me against it. She got tutors for maths and physics but I could only see that act as emotional blackmail. I did get 63% in the board but it was negative motivation really. And it has been downstream ever since.

To tell the truth I didn’t feel like studying for SLC either. I hardly studied 1 or 2 hours for every exam. And before I entered the exam hall I felt like a drunkard singer entering the performance hall. I got 82 in send up for optional maths but only 46 in SLC.

After the 12th all I ever did was write in my diary on philosophy. Day in and out. In the back side of all my subject notebooks I scribbled a lot of stuff nobody but me can understand.